Napa Valley, California

Life’s Weird – Part 5

Back in Part 3, I mentioned that the unknown of what’s going on and waiting to learn more is the worst part of all of this. Well, round 2 of the waiting game isn’t any easier. I truly thought it was going to be easier, after all, I at least had some answers this time. Well, I was wrong. The waiting game is still awful.

A little over a week ago, I had my first brain surgery. It was just a small biopsy and the whole experience was absolutely fascinating. The biopsy went very well and I was able to go home the very next day. It was all amazingly painless (seriously, no painkillers needed) and recovery was/is simple.

The only bad part: no updates on the results for a week and a half.

Good News: The wait is almost over!

Life’s weird – I never would have guessed I’d be this excited to hear potentially scary news. Like I said in part 3 and again today, waiting really is the worst part.

Earlier tonight I was talking with a good friend about this exact thing. It was just a normal and honest conversation, but I believe it’s worth sharing. I didn’t ask his permission to share it (sorry buddy), so I’m leaving the details out. (This part of the post may not mean anything to you, but I believe I’m being asked to write it for someone.)

Yes, the waiting is the worst part – but it still isn’t that bad.

Friend: “How are you holding up?”

Brad: “Doing well. Ready for tomorrow (appointment is scheduled for 12:45 PM).”

Friend: “You’ve handled this waiting (word not needed) way better than I ever could.”

Brad: “Some moments are better than others. I get stressed out over it, but then I just remind myself that it’s not so bad. I’m much better off waiting and walking into the hospital than those who are being rushed in by ambulance right now. My ability to wait is a blessing itself.”

…wait. What did I just say? Did I really just say that? That’s not normal. I didn’t even think it through before sending it. I’m really not that intelligent or well spoken. So how did that just come out? Here’s my guess…

Mark 13:11 — “…when the time comes, say whatever is then given to you. For the words you speak will not be yours; they will come from the Holy Spirit.”

God has definitely supported and helped me through all of the craziness that has happened in the last few weeks. Looking back, I’m even able to see how God started to prepare me for this journey several years ago and God continues to help me each day.

So, what’s my point in sharing this with you?

We all have things that worry us each day. We are all up against something that’s stressing us out right now. No matter what it is, you’re not in it alone. Whatever it is you’re fighting, you’re strong enough to get through it. You may be unsure about what to do, you may not feel strong enough, you may be fearful that you’ll make the wrong decisions or say the wrong things – you won’t. Trust in God and say, or do, whatever is given to you.

Featured image: Napa Valley, California.